i find that i go through seasons with how i feel about music. if you know me, you know i love music and music has always been something i've connected with. so it's been interesting that this past year or so, i've really not been feeling the whole 'music' thing. and i dont mean that i've stopped listening to music; i just havent been as interested in it.
while living in korea, music was something that God really used to speak to me. it was like i would blast hillsong in my apartment and feel safe and loved. i would really love waking up on sundays in anticipation for singing with others at lifechurch. music would make me cry. it would make me think. it would turn me to God. it would be an outlet. (especially if nori-bong was included- korean style karaoke)
but i cant say that has been true as of late. i definitely still listen to music. i'm definitely still interested in what's 'new' or finding music that isnt so mainstream. but i havent been connecting with it as much. it's like i would listen, and enjoy, but it wouldnt move me. and i could tell that it wasnt because of the quality of music i was listening to; it was something with me. something inside of me has changed and the way that i interpret the music has changed.
with all of that said, it has all changed again this past week. i am connecting with music again. it is something i am enjoying again; however, it's different. it's not like it was. it seems like there are a few artists that i just cant get enough of and anything outside of that very small circle doesnt cut it right now.
i sort of wonder if any of this mirrors sort of where i am at with God right now. (i know this is a stretch) but i've found my relationship with God is obviously evolving. that's what it does and that's what you HOPE it does. i have found that what used to work for me, doesnt anymore. i am finding that i have this 'very small circle' of ways that i can truly connect with God and anything outside of that just isnt enough. is it maturing? is it just different circumstances? no matter, it's something i find myself thinking about.
if you're curious...
while living in korea, music was something that God really used to speak to me. it was like i would blast hillsong in my apartment and feel safe and loved. i would really love waking up on sundays in anticipation for singing with others at lifechurch. music would make me cry. it would make me think. it would turn me to God. it would be an outlet. (especially if nori-bong was included- korean style karaoke)
but i cant say that has been true as of late. i definitely still listen to music. i'm definitely still interested in what's 'new' or finding music that isnt so mainstream. but i havent been connecting with it as much. it's like i would listen, and enjoy, but it wouldnt move me. and i could tell that it wasnt because of the quality of music i was listening to; it was something with me. something inside of me has changed and the way that i interpret the music has changed.
with all of that said, it has all changed again this past week. i am connecting with music again. it is something i am enjoying again; however, it's different. it's not like it was. it seems like there are a few artists that i just cant get enough of and anything outside of that very small circle doesnt cut it right now.
i sort of wonder if any of this mirrors sort of where i am at with God right now. (i know this is a stretch) but i've found my relationship with God is obviously evolving. that's what it does and that's what you HOPE it does. i have found that what used to work for me, doesnt anymore. i am finding that i have this 'very small circle' of ways that i can truly connect with God and anything outside of that just isnt enough. is it maturing? is it just different circumstances? no matter, it's something i find myself thinking about.
if you're curious...
my small circle of music: addison road, mumford & sons, the glorious unseen, snow patrol
my small circle of God: reading the bible, reading my beth moore devotional book, sketching
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