For the majority of this past year I have been doing a good job of hiding. You wouldn't necessarily agree with this from my somewhat frequent Facebook updates or my daily Instagram posts, but those things don't go deep enough to see my heart or read my mind.
I have to admit that coming home from Africa, planning a wedding, preparing for marriage and all of life in-between has been a bit overwhelming. I didn't know how to deal with it. It was hard to connect with people who understood. So my response was to hide. I've hid my true feelings and I've avoided deep conversations with people and all the while, I didn't realize that a small part of me was dying.
Thankfully there have been deep conversations here and there as well as a new found vulnerability within my marriage; however, I know that on a bigger scale so much of me is still hidden.
And this is my reason for writing today. Something inside of me snapped tonight. It's as if the part of me that was breathless and barely hanging on for life has been revived. I want to live!
So keep checking back for updates. I plan to reflect a little bit on this past year and sort through the cobwebs of my brain, but also want to share about life now and what our future holds.
Until then...
You are the light of the world. A city set on a hill cannot be hidden. Nor do people light a lamp and put it under a basket, but on a stand, and it gives light to all in the house. In the same way, let your light shine before others, so that they may see your good works and give glory to your Father who is in heaven. Matthew 5:14-16 ESV
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